We chit chat for a few hours, laughing at our friend's photos from Facebook and looking at some sexy pictures from a girl from our college. She is really damn brave to take all those pictures and show it at facebook and let the whole world to see it. Well if I have a nice body like her, guess what? I will do it also haha! Start to think of my appearance too when I see so many of the pretty gurls pictures, Im really envy of them. So Sidney, diet! diet! diet! Exercise more ya!!
Decided to watch movie at Pavilion so we took a bus there. It was raining damn heavy and we were all wet. Reached the cinema and it was so packed so end up drinking and had our dinner at a restaurant next to Carlos (forgot the name). We ordered 1 jug of Carlsberg and our dinner (sausages wrap with beef) damn yummy and he ordered Spagetti too (Rich people is like that). I was ok with drinking but for him, his face and neck turned to be so red after only a few sips..My god! You really have to improve man! Just kidding haha!
As we were having dinner, we talked about what exactly we want in our life. My friend has a stable job right now that he just join and im really happy for him. While for me, Im still thinking the solution of how to help myself to improve. I was so down for the past few days and been very emo too. He told me im the first person that he knew that actually have self-awareness of herself at the age of 21. He is really proud and happy for me. Is never too late to improve and change. I told him about my financial and savings background. I realize I really have to save money for my future usage by not wasting money to do unnecessary stuffs. Clubbing, partying, drinking, smoking or what ever is it are not the things for us teenagers to do right now. All these activities are for the adults who already have a stable financial, job and own companies. We are not there yet. We still have to work hard.
The only ways to help myself since my EQ and IQ are so low like a 5 year old kid's brain is by reading more and more books. Will really spend my boring and past time heading to Borders cause I love the Starbucks there. Since im weak in english, I don't mind to carry my Oxford dictionary everywhere. At least I have something to help me out when I don't understand a word. People might think this gurl is crazy carrying dictionary everywhere but I don't care what people think. That is what im going to do in order to success. I have to change my attitude too since I noticed not many people like the way I behave especially at college. Attitude brings you success. I will always remember that.
Ways to improve on me:
a) Save money (eventhough I can only save RM200 a month)
b) Read more books. Don't understand ask for friend's help and DICTIONARY!
c) Change attitude.
I will definitely do it. I will prove to the whole world that Im not as stupid or as useless as you guys think. I may look smart but inner actually im just like a kid. I don't want people to put high hopes on me without knowing actually I ain't that smart. Im happy and proud to have successful people proud of me and keep on saying I have a leadership look and hope to see me at the top. Im really happy for that. Now I know im not that smart and talented, so I want to improve myself before they notice that Im actually useless. I will do it until I succeed cause I admit im a fast giving up person. I will always remember what they said:
This is what JonQ wrote to me when I was at ELYN 2009.Really meaningful..
This is what Lucas wrote to me when I was at ELYN 2009.Really sweet..
Will never forget their blessing. Will be at the top one day! God bless!
Say no to demons
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